And of course the octopus-dog = OCTODOG!
Friday, August 29, 2008
Puasa - so fast!
Its puasa time again. So here's some some picture celebrating food before it comes around.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Friends, family and countrymen!
Helo!
I've just changed my template. But..... I forgot to save my linkies.
So friends, please give me the address(es) to your house(s) 'kay?
(driving around blindly)
HALP!!
I've just changed my template. But..... I forgot to save my linkies.
So friends, please give me the address(es) to your house(s) 'kay?
(driving around blindly)
HALP!!
Monday, June 23, 2008
Silent Watching
I promised myself that I will never be sad again. That I will never want to depend on somebody or something. I want my life to be normal again.
Whatever that is.
Normal.
I've been thinking - I haven't talked to God in a long time. I always feel that he's with me... watching and waiting. Church? A year and a half. That's the last time my shadow has fallen between its pews. I don't consider myself Holy -never had (which surprises me when people think I am).
Two years. That's how long nina's gone. I still speak of her in the present form. In my language there is no similar word to "Late" or "Arwah". You just don't mention them. As a sign of respect - as if they never was gone. As if they never existed. There's a phrase in my head that keeps repeating at odd times of the day - " I don't have a mother. I don't have a mother..." Its usually when the day is unusually quiet.
Do I blame God?
Yes.
Not really. Not these few weeks.. It was convenient to do so.
When I think of the future... I think "I don't know what to do with myself".
Do I blame my mother?
Yes.
I tell myself, "why did she have to go? why didn't she wait? I told her when I was going home"
Do I blame myself?
Yes.
That is the problem.
I can never forgive myself for not being there when she died. My brothers, my sister - they had a chance to make their peace. Me? I'll never know what she wanted to tell me.
Normal.
After her death, this is how I feel - I feel like half of my head is empty. Like the memories of us was gone. And days and days go by that I try to remember her words, what she sounds like, what she feels like... Like all of it was taken away. Was it an act of God? Or was it me?
Whatever that is.
Normal.
I've been thinking - I haven't talked to God in a long time. I always feel that he's with me... watching and waiting. Church? A year and a half. That's the last time my shadow has fallen between its pews. I don't consider myself Holy -never had (which surprises me when people think I am).
Two years. That's how long nina's gone. I still speak of her in the present form. In my language there is no similar word to "Late" or "Arwah". You just don't mention them. As a sign of respect - as if they never was gone. As if they never existed. There's a phrase in my head that keeps repeating at odd times of the day - " I don't have a mother. I don't have a mother..." Its usually when the day is unusually quiet.
Do I blame God?
Yes.
Not really. Not these few weeks.. It was convenient to do so.
When I think of the future... I think "I don't know what to do with myself".
Do I blame my mother?
Yes.
I tell myself, "why did she have to go? why didn't she wait? I told her when I was going home"
Do I blame myself?
Yes.
That is the problem.
I can never forgive myself for not being there when she died. My brothers, my sister - they had a chance to make their peace. Me? I'll never know what she wanted to tell me.
Normal.
After her death, this is how I feel - I feel like half of my head is empty. Like the memories of us was gone. And days and days go by that I try to remember her words, what she sounds like, what she feels like... Like all of it was taken away. Was it an act of God? Or was it me?
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
HELLO LOVES!
Hey there, welcome there to my blog.Sorry for the mess around here /kicks some junk under the carpet/
Anyway.....here's the finished product of our report.
It's so beautiful!!!!!
Thanks for your cooperation, support and ideas on the report.
I added all the random notes + questionnaires + slide presentations etc etc in the final report.
Rizal already sent the original report to your respective e-mails if you want to know the details).
The hardcopy and the softcopy (in CD) is also in the report. A copy of it has also been sent to Take. (But it was too big- a whopping 33mb!. And that's just the PowerPoint).
The report only is 48 pages excluding the Appendix which is another 50 (?) so its thick.
Here's hoping we get the full 40%!
So, thank you, friends! :)
- Rizal
- Lala
- Gwen
- Amoi
- Sara
The pics are of our 'baby'. :) Hope you're okay with the cover.
At the CC getting everyone's report.
The finished product!
Pekerja A-Meng yang tekun!
Half-way through....
The stapling process! (One page was upside down! - >.< sorry!)
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Dammit!
Dammit how can I can't access my own account?
(Stupitstupitstupit!)
Hello there folks.
I was considering (seriously seriously) the move to another locality (mebbe ibanez's neighbourhood /yes i can hear you ROFLing all the way from here ibanez/) when finally blogger lets me innnnnnnnnn!!!! thus /points up/.
Anyhoo before the earth ends its annual 365 (:\ is this correct? i forget!!) round trip around the sun i wana update you what's been happening about the length of time i wasn't allowed in blogger.
1) i got a hair cut
2) i went on the ferris wheel
3) uhh...
you see what happens when i'm away too long?? dammit i can't remember oredy!
dang it!
anyhoo this is what i look like now with the new hair and the pic i took at the ferris! whee ^ -^
Okay you can't see the cut properly here.... but lookee how small the ferris is tee hee :D
Suffice to say, i was scared s***less on it and i wanted to shake the guy in front of me to stop shaking the dang gondola (yes i mean you syaoran)
but it was a beautiful ride mmm.... :)
im gona miss it.
byebye dear wheel bye bye! /wave wave/
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(Stupitstupitstupit!)
Hello there folks.
I was considering (seriously seriously) the move to another locality (mebbe ibanez's neighbourhood /yes i can hear you ROFLing all the way from here ibanez/) when finally blogger lets me innnnnnnnnn!!!! thus /points up/.
Anyhoo before the earth ends its annual 365 (:\ is this correct? i forget!!) round trip around the sun i wana update you what's been happening about the length of time i wasn't allowed in blogger.
1) i got a hair cut
2) i went on the ferris wheel
3) uhh...
you see what happens when i'm away too long?? dammit i can't remember oredy!
dang it!
anyhoo this is what i look like now with the new hair and the pic i took at the ferris! whee ^ -^
Okay you can't see the cut properly here.... but lookee how small the ferris is tee hee :D
Suffice to say, i was scared s***less on it and i wanted to shake the guy in front of me to stop shaking the dang gondola (yes i mean you syaoran)
but it was a beautiful ride mmm.... :)
im gona miss it.
byebye dear wheel bye bye! /wave wave/
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